Quite A Lot Of Feedback
My apology yesterday has gotten quite a bit of attention. I have gotten a myriad of responses ranging from:
“and the gay community says collectively, “you go to hell you self hating, religiously brainwashed piece of craap!” Norman
“stop apologizing! you have lost your testimony.” Nichole
I have placed my faith in Jesus Christ to be my Lord and Savior for twenty one years now. I believe His finished work on the cross atones for my sin and His Resurrection from the dead assures His promise of eternal life fully reconciled to our Heavenly Father. His Spirit dwells within Me (I’m born again) and His Grace floods my life.
Hey Nichole, I found my testimony!
While there are some complaints, most people from a very wide range of perspectives have been incredibly gracious and supportive.
I want to reiterate that when I began thinking and praying about apologizing, I felt it needed to be a well thought-out statement from my heart. My apology does represent a deep remorse for the wrongs I have done. I did not write it expecting anyone to accept or reject my apology. My only expectations for the apology were that it be honest, specific, and personal. I can fully understand, and respect, other’s right to accept or reject it.
This Is Not The End
I concluded the apology with:
“Moving forward, I pray the Lord helps keep me humble and reveals any issues/situations that require my consideration. I will keep an open heart and ear, and if and when action is necessary, I pray to find the grace and courage to quickly apologize and/or make amends.”
Some have stated that my apology didn’t go far enough. They believe I should have included quite a list (altogether) of things they think I should apologize for, and explain my beliefs in greater detail. It is clear from the closing of my apology that I do not see it as the end of my need to consider past actions. I didn’t go into a huge list of issues in that document because there is still a lot of things to prayerfully consider. What was published yesterday is what I clearly feel the need to apologize for at this point.
In other words, I believe the apology is enough for what it speaks to, but it is definitely not the end.
More Specifics …
I have also heard from a few people that they want to know a lot more specifics about the ministries I feel who have caused hurt/offense in the past. I am still praying about all of that and what is and is not appropriate to share. This is very difficult to process because there are a lot of good people in and around these ministries and plenty of ministries that had nothing to do with the hurtful ones. It isn’t something I necessarily want to talk about. I know I need to, and will, I just have to find the way. I don’t want to bring up specific situations if there is no clear need or redemptive purpose in doing so. And while I find my way, or better yet … ask the Lord to clearly show the way, I would really like to hear your suggestions and feedback.
That said, I no longer see these issues from an us vs. them vantage point. I will always seek to humanize, and come against any polarization or stigmatization of any sort. Here are a few posts along these lines that come to mind:
I don’t have the way forward all figured out. Still processing a slew of input and issues to consider. However, I am very excited to be a founding partner of a new effort with Alan Chambers and a select team. We will be announcing the name of the new effort (no it is not an ex-gay ministry) in the next few weeks. In the meantime you can follow us at the website for it: www.reducefear.org as well as the Facebook page www.facebook.com/reducefear.
Thank you for reading and for those of you who have given feedback.